....you grab the salt pour that tequilla and make the best of it!
Today I learned a very valuable lesson, Actually this whole week i've learned some of the hardest lessons I've ever had to learn.
The begining of this week I was withdrawn from all my classes. I lied about going to school and stayed in my room for about a week and a half. Instead of telling everyone I was fine and that school was going great, I should have just been honest and said I dont like it here, I have to much time on my hands and I feel lonely. All that time and with a computer that shuts off every 5mintues, all I could do was think and all these thoughts that were just driving me insane. I should have just been honest and yes I felt terriable lying its just that everyone was telling me how proud they were of me and I felt that if I left the school they would think that I failed and I just didn't want to let them down. In the end I let them down by lying, if I would have been honest from the beging I know that they would have helped me find a way through it. Everything happens for a reason, and like in the episode of Greys Anatomy(season four, right after Denny died) yesterday Izzy was talking to the Chief and she tells him she knows it was wrong but in that moment she didnt know what else to do, he lets her back in to the program because if we all just give up, then were would we be? Every mistake we make is a life lesson and although we messed up for the future we know not to make that mistake and we grow and learn from it.
Growing, Learning, learning to just accept people for who they are. You are the way you are and I can't change that. Today I came to a huge dissapointment in more that 1 person. When I was talking to my sister she said, you cant let that bring you down, you cant beat yourself up about things you cant change, and she is right. ( like always) But yeah, its hard but I cant just waste my life being down cause then Ill never be happy. Life is full of let downs and people who have it so much worse than me, I just have to be greateful for all the good times Ive had , because in reality that all we have. So i'm done trying so hard with people Im not going to stress little things anymore cause you people make me older than I really am.
Another thing, people should just be honest. My sister says this all the time ( shes my brain of course shes right ;] ). It makes things less complicated, if you dont want to come over SAY NO! My feelings dont get hurt, This happens so many times with so many people, I feel like you give me exuses after exuses and just make it 50xs more complicated than it has to be. Yes or No. Its simple I dont need your life story and a maybe. We really need to work on being more honest with one another. But hey like I said before, people are the way that they are, and I cant change that, I can be honest in hope that they will see that its not that bad, In reality the only time you do get hurt or hurt people is when you lie..
On that note, that's all I got for today kiddos ;]