Gone for a mintue

Hola Blogger!

Como estas?

Bueno, I don't even have to state the obvious, however for you curious minds I will tell you exactly where I've been.

I've been slacking.
It's been so long I almost forgot my password, yikes!
Any hoot, I've realized that I blog when I am not in the best of moods, since I've been doing somewhat okay, I guess I forgot about the blogging world.
My apologies.

Since I've gotten my blackberry, crackberry I should say, I haven't really sat down at a computer, and although a full keyboard is amazing, its not amazing enough to write blogs, my poor fingers get tired with all the none sense I be talking LOL.

So yeah blogging world, Its late I just wanted to say I'm back at it!
like a crack addict..

Rosalinda<33

loosing hope..

Is there a place where honesty exists? Is there a place where kindness is there as well? Maybe some happiness? Is there a place where once you forgive, you truly forget. A place where perfection is everyone and anyone. A drama-free place.
This place, this wonderful place sadly doesn't exist.
Instead we live in a place where we say your forgiven but this invisible grudge is held against you for the rest of your life, a place where all it takes is one person for everyone to follow and individuality is out the window. A place where nobody speaks their mind, and honesty, pft what's the meaning of that? A place where were to scared to tell someone how we feel or what were thinking. A place were love is found on the world wide web. This place is cold, its scary and the thought of this place just sends chills down my spine, I'd give anything to go back to the way things used to be, anything.. But most of all, I'm sick of this place :(

Frustrating sacrafices.

I can't sleep in my own bed, I can't watch tv in my own house, I have a time limit on when and what I can eat, I can't shower in peace, I mean I can't even get a breath of fresh air without it being polluted with nasty SMOKE...

I'm just a little frustrated.

It all up to you..

Updates:

I have a crazy family, this not much of an update..

Moms staying, this is.

Abuela's moving in, Kristan's moving out, this also is an update.

Freshly painted apartment.

All attempts for change.

I'm tired of being in this place, therefore I will no longer stay here.

I'm tired of assumptions & judgements therefore I will no longer listen anymore.

I'm tired of being the one that needs to be "fixed" , I am not broken.

We seek this thing that we have, we try so hard to be positive and its already in our finger tips, we don't work hard enough for it.

Nothing comes easily, everything comes with its own struggles, things arent always sunny.

I saw a little rain this morning & thought I should stay home, it's the perfect day to do nothing & be in bed, however what do I get out of that ? nothing.

Point blank, I'm tired, time doesn't wait for you,

you want change, do it.

That's all I've got kiddos.

Im lost on the road...

It's just like that dream where your screaming at the top of your lungs, but no one hears you.

It feels something like that.

eh, I just don't know anymore, I gotta go, time to paste on the smile.